I need to vent. Why am I the type of person that people can walk all over? I get looked at, listened to, and then ignored. Is that just my personality? Do I let people do this to me? I'm not quite sure if it's just who I am.. I think it's the lack of confidence, and ability to stand up for myself. I guess in certain situations I act differently, depending on who I surround myself with. I guess some people just have different effects on my personality. The good ol' Gemini coming out I presume.

I can't figure anything out. My mind races. I have lost the ability to think for myself. I need serious fucking help.

I'm mot myself anymore. On so many levels.
I got into Ryerson and won the photography competition. Ontario finals this weekend. If I win that I go to the Canadian finals. Crazy stuff.

Have a good weekend to all.

Unhealthy infatuations. No longer will I be this way.
I just need to get into Ryerson already, the suspense is killing me. Are you trying to do that, ARE YOU?
I need to see change.




Photography competition this Tuesday. Wish. Me. Luck.

We are not human until we are human. I feel less alive then usual. I'm over this whole scene. I need to move forward. I cannot wait till that moment, and it's not for anyone else. Yes, I am being selfish and self centered which I am trying to become less of, but the more I want it the more I tend to brush that aside. It's sad. I'm sad. Regardless, we as humans, need motivations. I really wish you could go away, dark one. Go away and give me my life back. As much as I want you gone, I couldn't imagine a life without you.

Sincerely yours.

I guess we are all foolish, young, naive, looking for something. We will find it, but we won't be satisfied. Vicious cycles. Over and over. I'm finding balance, trying to figure out what's best for me in the moment, and trying not to step on toes in the process. Questioning myself, others, motives, ambitions. Lets move forward with things, figure out whats best for the moment. This doesn't have to make much sense, cause at this point in time I'm really just trying to make sense of it all. Thanks for listening. Sincerely, Allisa.





I miss you.

Welcome January Playlist
Walkabout - Atlas Sound
What's a Girl got to do - Basement Jaxx
Change Clothes - Jay Z
Dipomat's Son - Vampire Weekend
Ceremony - New Order
Lisa - Albert Hammond Jr.
Bodysnatchers - Radiohead
With a Heavy Heart - Does It Offend You, Yeah?
Easy Beat - Dr. Dog
40 Day Dream - Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros

It's been awhile. What's up blogging world? I've been SO BUSY, my goodness I've barely had time to sit down (that's a huge lie, just not enough time to update this). My portfolio is due in a week, and I'm almost DONE, soooo excited to be almost finished. I got the biggest part out of the way, and I made a dress/shirt thing. It's a little short so I stuck a skirt underneath it. I took a bunch of old patterns and fabric and made some alterations to it. Here's the final look, the photos will be different for when I hand it in, here are just some teasers.


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Heres also some photography I had from my school art show the other week! My theme was capturing personalities when the subject least expected it (the photo was taken in between photos that the subject was posing, except the baby)






HAPPY SATURDAY NIGHT EVERYONE